At last, winter released its grip and the sun’s warmth radiated around them. Snow melted and created tiny rivers in the street. Water dripped down windows from ice sickles that still hung on. Already flowers were blooming and children stared in wonderment, seeing something new that had been only been sung of. Parents and grandparents sniffed the sweet fragrances while remembering years past. Tentatively content for the first time in almost five years of what spring would bring. No one had brought in what survived of their harvest yet, not worried for once they wouldn’t find enough to feed their families. Stenwulf walked among them alone, assured that none would try to hurt him. Part of him didn’t, and couldn’t, except that any of this was because of him. The land gave and took away, that was a part of life. He could imagine his father’s reaction if he told him half of what happened. Laughter followed by disgust at his son who could never be enough of a warrior. He growled and his pace quickened. He just wanted to be out of sight. As he headed towards his room, not yet allowed to share a one with Bonfire, Alani confronted him.
“There is no room for doubt. Don’t be fooled by the new growth. Yes, it’s here. If you don’t accept your responsibility it will be little more than a show.” She spoke quietly.
He was unnerved by her knowledge, and hidden hostility. He met her gaze and said, with as much confidence as he could muster,” I don’t doubt I have a responsibility, even my people believe in fate. And magic. What no one has explained is why I owe so much to a land I’ve never been to?”
Alani wore a closed expression as she said, “You loved a place that gave you no value, so you searched for a land where no one knew your name. Am I correct?”
His shocked silence answered both spoken and implied questions.
“Now you’ve found what you searched for. Why do you reject it?” her expression and tone gave nothing away.
“I didn’t want this. Value, maybe so, but not this!” He blurted. “I am a warrior so I will fight… I won’t run. That isn’t my nature.”
“Is that your reason?” She spoke, her eyebrow raised.
Stenwulf sighed. He considered lying but decided against it. “If I didn’t, I couldn’t sleep. I don’t have a hard enough heart.” A hint of self-hate crept into his voice.
She studied his face for a long while before speaking. “And what of Queen Bonfire?” she asked in an uncaring tone.
He opened his mouth to speak, and then stopped. He felt a spark of anger and fought to keep his face as neutral as hers. “I’ll make myself worthy of her,” he said softly.
Alani’s façade cracked and she snorted. “Either you are or you aren’t,” she replied in the same uncaring voice before stepping around him.
As he struggled to control his anger he could’ve sworn colors flashed through the dark walls. Frustrated he marched to his room and managed to close the door without slamming it.
**
Bonfire sat listening to Councilman Oadel ramble on about different political issues. Their main concern how they would reenter a world that had surely forgotten them. Fifteen years had passed since her mother had first fallen ill and the lands beyond became unimportant. Only survival mattered then and now. She knew she should pay attention since their future was still uncertain, but she didn’t feel safe. She felt there was something waiting they hadn’t prepared for. Unlike her mother and grandmother she did not have visions but a cold feeling slowly ate away at her, a numbness that even the bitterest winter couldn’t produce. But for all her misgivings she made the mistake of not believing the source of her fear could lay so close. Then, suddenly, a wave of heat shot through her and she couldn’t stop a sharp cry.
Instantly Oadel was beside her, a firm grip on her arm. “What is it?” he asked, concern barely stifled.
“Nothing, I’ll return when I can,” she managed to say even though she shook badly. When she could, she stood and hurried from the small room. Glad that she wore a simple gown instead of full skirts.
Before she got close to the door, she felt like Stenwulf’s anger was a wall. It filled every inch of her mind. What could have inspired this? She gasped for air, but managed to keep going. Placing her hand softly on the door she prepared herself for a long wait. So, surprised when the door opened on its own, she only looked around. They’d found a bed large enough for him and placed it against the far wall. There were no chairs, only a stool and low table by request. She had insisted on a carpet, dark brown resembling fur, because she hadn’t expected spring to be warm. On any other day the room was homey but today the atmosphere was oppressive. Stenwulf stood stiffly by the window. He’d replaced his new pants with his old linen trousers.
“Has someone hurt you?” she asked gently, closing the door.
“No one has done or said anything I haven’t heard before.” He took up most of the space, making the room shrink. When he turned around his expression was like stone. “New clothes aren’t going to make a difference. I don’t even know if I’m making a difference,” he growled. “Give me the chaos of a battlefield any day.” He threw up his hands.
“Spring has not come in so long children are born without knowing it. A few warm days are all we expect, and when we begin to hope that is taken away.” Her expression was a mix of despair and anger. “Only when you accept yourself as king can you become one. There is no time left to find another solution.”
“And why not? Why didn’t you choose a king before me?” his tone was low and accusatory.
Momentarily caught off guard, she couldn’t answer right away and he started to turn away. Then, she shot back, “You think I chose you? If I could rule alone I wouldn’t hesitate to do so. And you could go back wherever you were running from.”
“So you’ve told me” he laughed, “But let’s be clear. I’m not running from anything. If I ran from my problems why would I help with yours?”
She glared at him and he couldn’t help a small smirk. With some of the tension broken he sat on the stool and crossed his arms. “Who chose me? There doesn’t appear to be anyone here terribly excited about having me as king,” he said with forced casualness.
“No one knows anything about you; did you expect an open – armed welcome? And my mother chose you,” she answered sheepishly.
He mulled that over for a while. “And where is she?”
“She’s dead. She died six years ago when I was sixteen” her voice was tight and she didn’t quite meet his gaze.
Neither spoke for a long time. He fidgeted and she stood patiently for his reaction with her hands folded against her lap.
After an indefinite amount of time he waved her over and pulled her onto his lap. “I’m honored you ancestors chose me. You have my word I will doubt no more and be your king,” he said in a reverent tone.
“Why so sudden a change?”
“In my village our ancestors speak and show our destiny. I’ve never heard anything, even after defending my people.”
She could say nothing, just stayed silent until it was clear he would say nothing more. In an effort to comfort him, she offered to get them drinks. She could’ve ordered a servant to do it, but she didn’t know if the silence would be bearable.
When she came back he was in a slightly better mood. She made sure a passing servant knew to keep plenty of mead on the table, and then closed the door. He graciously accepted the drinks and they both sat through uncomfortably forced conversation. After a few drinks, he was bragging about his hunts and happy memories of his homeland. She noticed he only spoke of the land, not the people, but didn’t say anything. She enjoyed seeing him smile. It was something he hadn’t done since arriving. Caught up in good feelings, she began telling him of running into the forest for days on end. And though she hadn’t hunted to kill, her parents were always dismayed to find the newest creature hidden in her room. Her first attempts at magic were healing the broken wings of fallen chicks, turning her room into a stable and an infirmary. He laughed and hit his hand on the table. She was amused by his reaction, her childish exploits, and the knowledge that her guardians would be horrified.
“Dieni was the one they let me keep,” she said with a wistful smile.
He smiled too as he remembered the cat. He gulped down the last of his ale and whispered menacingly, “Well, that’s nice my little bride but I’ve got a better tale.”
Stenwulf told of young boys who went into the forest to hunt. He spoke with a mischievous grin as he told of sneaking in the night, heartbeat pounding in the youngest’ ears making it hard to hear, while his imagination ran wild. Cold sweat of fear threatened to freeze his clothes to his skin but he didn’t dare stop, or be left behind. Ahead his brother was outlined against the sky, but he knew even a faint cry would bring harsh retaliation. It would give them away, on top of being a final sign of weakness, and they were hunting one of the last great bears. But no one was prepared for bitter winds and countless biting insects. The older boys threw vicious looks at the younger as if it was a curse he had put on them. Further proof he should’ve been left behind as is the logic of children. And just as their patience snapped and physical violence broke out, he came crashing through the trees. Furious such whelps had insulted him. And they were all little boys again with knives shaking in their hands. With no hope they attacked, cutting but making no stop to the bear’s advance. Beaten back but too afraid to run and silently crying for this to end.
The world shook in this vicious confusion and tears blurred the young boy’s eyes. There was a thud as the bear’s claw smacked into someone, a wet tearing noise, and then a crack as he hit an oak tree. Wailing and cries for vengeance, but it did not last for long. The young boy was helpless as he watched his eldest brother engulfed in its massive jaws. And then it turned on him, dark eyes glinting. With the courage of one who expects to die, he charges crying his brother’s name. At the very last-minute he slips as the bear slams into him. Only shock helped keep a grip on his knife, driving it through the bear’s ribs. Landing on his legs, the bear shuddered then lay still. Briefly, the young boy wondered if he’d walk again. Turning his head to see his brother’s broken body, he didn’t care. Just closed his eyes and prayed he’d die soon. The village men found them the next morning, his father among them. He grieved for his oldest and cursed his youngest. No one stopped him, all agreeing it must’ve been the young boy’s stupidity that got their boys killed.
Here his voice caught and she had the sickening realization that he was speaking of himself. She fought back tears and, returning to sit in his lap, leaned her head against his forehead.
“I am here, my liege.”
His grip on her waist tightened for a fraction of a second. Once he had his emotions controlled she felt him smile against her cheek.
“While you’re here-” he whispered.
“Yes, yes, I know. More beer.” Her laughter bought a wider grin to his face.
**
Later, she sat before her mother’s grave, once again in a trance. Autumn placed her hand gently on top of her daughter’s.
“You know I must leave now. There is nothing more for me to do here.” She smiled when Bonfire nodded stiffly. Her colorful full-length gown flapped silently as she began to move away.
“What if I need your help again? Will you be there?”
Her mother paused, staring off into the distance. “I will give you what answers I can but I cannot linger here,” she said indicating their surroundings. “I have to pass on.” She placed her hands on Bonfire’s face. “You are not alone, dear one. Your friends will always outnumber your enemies as long as you remain who you are.”
They embraced one final time. Her mother’s eyes filled with prideful tears as she faded. Reluctantly, she returned to her body and wrapped her arms around herself. She shuddered though the air was warm, tears running down her face. The last of her mother’s magic lingered and she tried to grasp at it, to keep it burning. But finally, even that was gone. Lost in her misery she almost didn’t hear the footsteps until they were almost on her. She jumped to her feet and spun around to see Stenwulf skidding to a halt, ready to fight. He was confused until he noticed where they were and took his hand off his sword hilt. She turned her back to him but he stood near her anyway. He put his arm around her in a loose hug and stood silently until she was ready to return.
**
When the time came for his coronation days had grown considerably warmer, and though there was still a bite in the wind there was no fear. The castle’s cooks were able to prepare a feast large enough for everyone. As if that weren’t enough to lift spirits the day was filled with sporting events, circus acts, and plenty of laughter. For the first time in years there was not a deathly pall over anyone. Both Stenwulf and Bonfire were able to breathe easier, and as they grew more comfortable around each other so did others. Allowing him to embrace his role at last before the crown was officially on his head. Councilman Oadel wore a relieved smile and gave him an enthusiastic welcome to his new citizens. The cheers made him want to hide in the nearest dark corner, but Bonfire took her place next to him. Placing a calming hand on his arm, it was her first public display of affection.
“Will this be over soon?” he whispered, trying not to move his lips.
She just smiled in response as she led him to his seat at the head table. As they sat, she caught a glimpse of Councilman Drahem’s expression and her stomach clenched. Stenwulf noticed her sudden tension and placed an arm around her as she sat. To anyone else it would seem like a token of his affection, but they knew it was a promise that he would protect her. Drahem narrowed his eyes and refused to look at them afterwards. The night passed without any serious incidents and everyone breathed a sigh of relief. Stenwulf was just happy he hadn’t made a fool of himself.
“Tonight is over; we have tomorrow’s problems to discuss.”
They both sat in her garden now. Wondering how they were going to put up with each other long enough to deal with a kingdom and its enemies.